It’s 3 AM and I’m listening to the most ridiculous Phil Collins song right now. I don’t feel like I’m missing out on anything, nor do I want to go back to my old habits. The final test for the hero is to realize what they’re bringing back to the old world, literally or metaphorically.
They have lived to tell their story, and to inform society. While I do feel heartbroken right now, I feel a tremendous amount of hope for my future. We did, however, agree that everything would be okay no matter where we go from here.
I did notice one thing — out of the 45 women, I am probably one of the three women who actually wore a dress and didn’t come in jeans and a shirt. I loved moving around, discovering things, trying things out for the first time.
My dress was of course, pink, and I kinda stuck out like a sore thumb. She was prettier than most of the women here and maybe that’s why she has an attitude. Though physically, I wasn’t too active — for example, I’m not the person who would camp outdoors for a week straight as I still love my AC, thank you very much — my mind was. I loved thinking about things, worrying about the world, and not really worrying about life. how are you going to get married if your curfew is at 5pm when everyone else gets off work from 6pm, and if you still listen to your parents at the age of 30?! He wore a bright yellow shirt sort of like tweety bird. He’s been everywhere and what intrigued me was he wall climbs!
They need participants because most Filipino-Chinese are just shy people.
While I feel exhausted from it all right now, I also feel a real sense of hope for myself. How do you feel about this relationship/project right now?
This has completely challenged my personal life, the way I conduct myself, the way I approach relationships, how I consider the consequences of my actions, and my ability to let a woman into my life emotionally. I had something I made for her before the trip, but considering what happened last night, I didn’t know whether I should give it to her. Ultimately I think we make a great couple on paper, but reality is a completely different story.
Secondly, I was one of the taller women there, towering over even most men. I don’t know how guys perceive women taller than them. Most people were looking around, scouring for the best-looking targets. I know this type of woman — she will probably only date guys she is physically attracted to. For the women, there were tons of lawyers, older women in their 30s, principals, and homebodies. Someone tall who is newly arrived, didn’t know her way around, observant, interested and in a pink dress. It doesn’t make me laid back as I can be the most hard working person you’d ever see, but I have my head and priorities straight. Anyway, there were tons of kids with controlling family backgrounds in the group.
I was simply nervous, and almost didn’t want to be there. As if you can find your mate by searching for the best looking person. Some also helped out with the family business but did NOT like working for the family. Guys who signed up because they were forced by their parents, or who want kids by any girl who says yes. In the end, I was able to find 15 acceptable candidates out of the 45. The guys I didn’t check were: I didn’t particularly tick the guys I was physically attracted to.
You know me — I’ve never really been shy to try any firsts.